THE ROLY-POLY

dragon came alive !

2012-01-30T00:09:00.006+08:00

welcome to the year of DRAGON !

gong xi ! gong xi !

30 days more & i'll be at bkk ! say WEEE ~!!!

this is my first time going bkk as i never really like going there. because the way they speak sound like they'r cursing you or something.

omg !

& my friends never stop reminding me that bkk is the most haunted country in the entire world.

WHAT THE FFFFFFFFUUUCCCKKKK !

c'mon ! so what you want me to do?
becos bkk is also the only country you can buy clothes/accessories/foods for as cheap as 1buck !

no joke ! so cheap can ~~!!!

alright, becos of this reason i decided to risk !! LOLs!

i'll make full use of the not-over-25kg lugagge, & the no-limit-weight of hand carry bag !

till then, BYE !

lets start afresh.

2012-01-02T01:11:00.005+08:00

HAPPY

2.0.1.2 !

They said the world is gonna end on 12.12.12.

But who care.

You just hafta enjoy being ALIVE !

goodbye,

2011.

its changing too fast.

2011-12-29T22:02:00.003+08:00

i don't expect a billionair,
i just want a sense of secure.

held my hand among the crowd,
listen to me whenever i speak.
look at me & tell me how much you care.

but it seem to be getting further & further.
& its getting colder here. the temp between us.

i needa find back the fireworks.
becos i just love sparks. i don't want a love like any other.

am i asking too much again?
please, i just needa turn back the time, just once.

girls are gift from heaven.

2011-12-17T00:38:00.002+08:00

LOVE, it come in diff sizes. colours. shapes. seasons. time.

LOVE, doesn't come with an instruction booklet.

LOVE, makes you happy. sad. angry. stupid. it can even make you lost yourself.

LOVE, isn't abt right or wrong. true or false. yes or no. its abt meeting the right one at the right time at the right place. its abt that one person that can make your heart skip everytime he kiss you goodbye. its abt whenever you looked at him, it still felt like the first time. its abt lying on his chest, feeling his heartbeats. & yes, right there. thats where you stay, forever.

LOVE, worst days were the quarrels. cold wars. misunderstanding. unappreciated. its when you cried to sleep. woke up & realize you're still crying. wtf?! seriously, it was so automatic. you just thot of the happy memories & you started to cry like tomorrow is the end of the world. lols. funny isn't it? so why in the first place do you guys hafta quarrel? if the problem can be solve by speaking up, then just TALK ! no rising of voices. no violent actions. of cos, no words like "lets breakup" !!

guys, if you already have this one pretty lady by your side now, cherish her. don't ever forgot the one particular reason why you choose her in the first place. you may lied to your friends that "i love her, because she is kind/cute/funny ... " but deep down, you know the real reason why you love her so much. let that reason stay forever. love her with all you can, just like the first time. trust me, you'r one lucky man. i always believe there is a diff between women & men. men are borned to protect women. if women can protect themselves, why do we still need men?

ps. kiss your lil princess on her forehead, & tell her how lovely she is. look into her eyes & tell her, you'll never let her go. its just afew simple actions, but it can melts a girl heart. do it before its too late !!!

just let it rain, i'm not going out.

2011-12-03T09:04:00.002+08:00

blogging on a saturday morning, when everyone were sleeping like a log? i tink i'm kinda funny uhs? but what to do, i'm soooooooo used to working life. i mean from mon - fri i gotta wake up at 7.10am. for sat & sun, i'll be more then happy to wake up at these hrs. 9 o'clock? c'mon ! it feels really great ! alrite, nobody wanna know what time i wanna wake up/what time i sleep, bla bla bla .. STOP!

let me see ~ what shld i talked about? prolly nothing ~ because my life suck ever since i started my working life. i started to do OT, due to some reason. & whenever i finished my work, the sky will be so dark. so, other then heading home i really have nowhere to go. dammit ! i felt like i'm really outta love. no dating/no shopping/no proper meals .. i'm totally one big loser ! when it comes to sat & sun, i just wanna stay at home & rest. read some books, do some blogging, clean up my room, bla bla bla ! actually, its nt tat bad. you don't hafta live on anyones' emotions. you can be self-centered for once. you live in your crazy lil world, thinking of craziest lil thing tat will happened to you. LOLs ! sometimes, i wished i don't believe in zodiac. because sometimes, i fking hate being a LEO ! they love to be independent, they forced themselves to keep all their sorrows & create all the laughters. hide all the tears behind that fking smile. YES! so tired ! i swear this isn't what i want ! but i'm just born like this ~ i got no control over it ! fuck, just FUCK !

& the conclusion is, DO NOT DISTURB ! let me just get used to 'loneliness'. call me emo/big loser/whatever, i don't care. because life is all about being alone. did you ever saw two peepos lying inside the coffin? yes, you die alone. so everything is 'one' 'a' = ALONE ! cheers to lone ranger ! yay !!

okay, i'll fuck off now. bye ! i'll come back when i finally realize being alone suck upsize time.

its part of life

2011-11-25T12:46:00.003+08:00

U.N.D.E.R.S.T.A.N.D.I.N.G

x.o.x.o

know what you want & MOVE ON.

2011-11-23T22:01:00.001+08:00

As you grow older, you'll realize that there isn't any fairytales in this world. You started to accept the fact that there is no prince charming, nor 'happily everafter'. Then, all you wished for is just a man who will love you for who you're. A man that you can talk to because you're very sure that he will understand every words you said. A man that will got worried when he can't reached you, when you're sick, or when you just got one tiny cut. A man who will protect you from everything, yes everything! & most of all, a love that will never fade.

Taipei day ONE

2011-10-20T07:06:00.001+08:00

Currently waiting for @ginny, @wr & @timo to wake up ~ 3 llllaaazzzzyyyy pig !!! I gonna love tw, becos the weather here totally rawks !! I never sweat at all, not at all ! Heez ! Alrite, ll blog soon with all the pics ~ Lots of love from tw to s'pore !!!

1:10

2011-09-27T15:01:00.001+08:00

nothing much,
just thought i'd let you know that i love you (:

I guess it hasn’t been all that long
but it seems like it’s been forever.

my choice ; it'll still be you

2011-09-25T10:07:00.008+08:00

"If our lives are like playing monopoly.

Regardless of how many times we play again,

the outcome should be the same.

because,

you'r my fate."

2011-08-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

According to you
I'm stupid, I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.

According to you
I'm difficult, hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
can't show up on time,
even if it would save my life.

But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.

According to him
I'm funny, irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.

Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

don't bark like a mad dog.

2011-08-08T11:56:00.002+08:00

idk which fking woman called me ytd and fking scolded me like i deserve it ! wtf ! you claimed that you'r his gf, GREAT ! but does that matter me? we alrdy broke up and thats the fact. i don't think i hafta know who he is with now. to be right, i think you shld thank me. i know you did read my blog, or you wun know so much abt us. so when you read this, go ahead and enjoy the days with him.

ps. although i was somehow irritated by that mad lady but i was really happy to know that you have someone by your side now.

so sick.

2011-08-05T14:14:00.006+08:00

i'm tired of everything, really.
i think i need to be alone for abit.

everything is wrong.
i'm really sick of all the lies.
i have a mountain of work to do.
my pimples are all popping out.
my body is failing me.
my ipod, phone, and computer are down most of the fking time.
i got hungry easily but i'm on fking diet.
i need new wallet/rings/clothes.

i don't wanna talk about it.

actually, can someone just take care of me until i get better?
please. just anybody.

2011-08-03T15:40:00.001+08:00

毕竟曾拥有过你一段路,
就像当初说要爱你, 给了全部.

2011-08-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

There is nothing left to say.

dear all; with lots love

2011-08-01T00:53:00.002+08:00

14days more to my birthday. but why don't i felt excitied at all?

well, i was facing afew problems. from friends to family, and to love. its all crashing down on me. but luckily i got afew friends that are still by my side, or i don't tink i could survive. thanks to you-know-who-you-are !!!

dear bff,
i think you shld know who i'm refering to. i'm sorry if i did something that made you misunderstand. i never wanted to lose you as my bestfriend. infact, i really hope our friendship can last forever. when i was sad, you were there for me. its more then 'you'r there for me' ! infact, you gave me some kinda strength to move on. you may thought it was just another friend to console when i'm sad. but to me, it was like .. i met an angel ! i know who to turn to when i'm sad/happy/lonely. no matter did i have mr right by my side now , i'll never forgot the days when the both of us said 'your SMILE was all i ever asked for'. rmb? i'll never ever forget. because that were the days i know i wasn't alone. and you too ! maybe you'r currently tied down by studies. maybe family or love. its alrite. i wouldn't disturb you. but please don't forget that i'll always be here for you if you needa listening ear.
ps. can you believe that, we have being friends for more then 10years ! i'm really proud to have a friend like you.

i don't talk to you/call you/sms you, its not because i had forgotten you. its because i don't wanna stress you with all the meetups. you once told me true friends shld be understanding, isn't it? so i guess you must be real busy. i hope i could hear from you real soon. <3

dear family,
please get back to how we used to be. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE !

dear babyboy,
you'r making me fking heartache. if this is love, i rather be alone. when i'm so lost now, i thought you shld be here for me? don't add on to my burden. i need you, always.
x.o.x.o

ps. God, please let everything get back to the right track before my b'day. i really need a HAPPY birthday !

random post

2011-07-31T12:11:00.001+08:00

OH HI !

OK BYE~

i wouldn't wanna be anyone else

2011-07-29T22:25:00.002+08:00

can you list out 10things about me in 1min? and still thinks that you had not enff time? nah .. i don't tink so ! because i tried to do it and *sigh* i failed. i was thinking and thinking .. 5mins ltr .. i managed to write out the first thing abt you, then i started to stare into space again. sucha loser ! been with you for so long, i thot i know you like nobody else. i thot no one else know you better then i do. but i was fking wrong. i know absolutely NOTHING abt you. and for the past years, what are we?

sometimes i hate myself for finding problems for myself. you know? like everything is so perfect/loving/heart-warming. and then, *bomb* 1 fking silly thot killed all the happy moments. yes, fking blame on me! i know it was me who started it. don't hafta console me that because i care, and so the problem appeared. also, don't tell me because i love you too much. and DON'T EVEN TRY TO CONVINCE ME THAT love is like this !

NO ! it was never suppose to be like this. LOVE, shld be happy ALL the time. no burden/no tears/no quarrels/no complain ! just you and me smiling cheek-to-cheek. holding hands, walking down the seashore, admiring how beautiful sunset can be. just like us. AHHHHHHHH !! it don't happened only in drama, it did happened in real life !! if the two of them are so loving, it can happened someday. but sadly, it din happened to us. NEVER. because we ain't the right one for each other.

thinking back on the first time i saw you, it seem like yesterday. everything seem so clear. you wore the white-and-forever-long-sleeve-shirt and a pair of jean. carrying the big and long shoulder bag. the first time i saw you, i knew you love drawing. because the first word outta your mouth wasn't 'hi', nor 'how are you'. But a 'hey! how was my drawing?!!' *shocked* and at the same time i find you rather special.

then the next thing i know, we are dating ! whats the omg part was none of my friends guess it right. sweetheart even said it was gx ! WHAT! are you cccrrraaazzzyyyy !! LOLs!! whatever it is, the most impt part was we went thru alot after we got tgt.

the very first heart-wrecking breakup. you insisted that we shldn't broke up just like this because of you-know-who. that was the 2nd time i saw you cried. idk what to say other then 'sorry' but you beg me to stay. because i'm the kinda of girl who gave up easily, even though i love that person/thing very much. yes, you know me. yet you tried all you can to make me stay, which made me very touched. and so i did, because i love you so much. we solved the problem tgt. i swear it was really a tough one. til now, the problem is still here with us. but we never choose to let go of each because of it anymore. you told me that someday everything will be alrite, but i'm not sure how long i hafta wait. i really look forward to that day. yes, i really do.

i used to say 'love me for who i'm not or hate me for who i'm'. i never thot that as time pass by, i lost the courage of saying this sentence. because i came to accept the fact that you wouldn't love me for who i'm, and so i started to change. everytime we quarrelled, i changed. i told myself 'mabeline, you gotta change if you don't wanna lose him'. (yes, i never thot that how it would be like to lose you. must be very scary!) from a high expectation, i became a person with ZERO expectation. (tell me which girl dun expect amap) because i knew that my expectation can made choke you to death. yes, i shldn't be so selfish. and so i changed.

you expect me to have less expectation from you. but the fact that i made it a zero. not less, but totally none. i completely gave up on the things that i expect you to do or buy for me. i swear! but now, guess what? it became a expectation from you which is too much for me to bear. i thot you would understand how much effort i hafta put in to get to who i am now. but i was wrong. i don't feel appreciated at all. it seem like it was a 'must' for me to change. i was so disappointed. now you got so used to no expectation. and when i expected a lil b'day wish from you, it seem so hard to grant. isn't it? you said "its the though that count"? whats the point of doing it/buying it when you know i don't like it or i don't need it at all. a thing that wun make me happy? how much do you care abt my "smile"? "thought that count" is just an excuse for people who don't care or what we called 'last-min-deal', am i wrong? try to tink back .. when people said that, they'r either in a rush, anyhow buy or do smthing for you. they dun really put in 100% effort and heart, am i wrong? i guess it was not abt how much you can afford, but how much i'm worth of that something. right? wrong? i felt really disappointed. it was sucha special occasion to me and i still hafta quarrel over it. well, best b'day gift ever.

Thanks.

maybe i was right for once, we'r not meant to be. i know how much you used to love me. it was too much for me to handle. but now, what do we left? i did my best, how abt you? if you can't love me for who i'm, leave me.

ps. this is a story of my friend. believe it or not.

head over toes

2011-07-27T16:25:00.005+08:00

i thought it would be a waste if my boy isn't a model. LOLs! he is kinda x.o.x.o !

ps. just e-mail me if anyone finding a male model for your blogspot. cheap and good ! *evil luff*

os. i think he gonna kill me ~ = P

c'mon mabeline !

2011-07-22T00:48:00.003+08:00

"i seriously need to get off my ass more
i need to do something with my life.

i've come to alot of revelations yesterday night,
all of which i hope to stop believing in soon,
becasue if not i'm just gonna end up as a social escort.

i think i just need to get my groove on and stop looking at unsuccessful people and saying heehee i'm lucky i'm not them,
and start looking at really smart successful people and going oh NO, i need to be like that.

okay that's enough for today."

COLLECTION THREE IN ACTION !

2011-07-01T15:54:00.002+08:00

preview for collection three !!

ohh man ! i can't wait for it to launch !!

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stay tuned !

*happy face*

爱的力量

2011-06-26T19:25:00.001+08:00

有没有这么一个人，你无数次说着要放弃，但终究还是舍不得。

UNDERGROUND - BROTHEL CREEPERS SHOES

2011-06-22T14:21:00.002+08:00

i'm not the kinda rocker-style, but idk why i can't resist this UG-roundtoe !

its like .. love at first sight !

i'm so gonna buy it ! anybody wanna sponsor? LOLs!

sponsor $10 also can uhs. *smiling cheek to cheek*

its a big playgound !

2011-06-20T21:16:00.002+08:00

USS <3,

so in love.

(more at fb ..)

ps. a lil imperfect, @sokhian wasn't here.

isn't it true?

2011-06-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

当两个人在一起比较久，女的会越来越爱男的，男的越来越随便。

男的会说女老是胡思乱想，女就说男已经变了不像以前那么宠她。

其实大家都没变，只是时间变了。

因为彼此关系变亲密了，习惯对方，所以不会再像热恋那样，所以女的会胡想。

无论如何请不要对爱情偷懒，否则只有平淡, 然后矛盾争吵再到分手。

love >3

2011-06-10T23:33:00.002+08:00

Talking to you makes my day. >3

East Coast Park !

2011-06-09T19:08:00.004+08:00

The other day at ECP with timie's friends.
And i miss cycling while editing these pictures. LOLs!
Maybe next week? or next next week? or next next next next .... week?

os. please don't rain on the day when i'm so ready to cycle, please! *crossed fingers*

Twinny's 22nd birthday !

2011-06-05T23:44:00.010+08:00

lastly ...

zara inspired skirt

@ ppeanutbutterr.livejournal.com

(great thanks to ginnyk)

its gonna be tough

2011-05-25T22:10:00.003+08:00

i hope God knows that i'm not prepared (never gonna be prepare) to lose anyone in my life. especially people that i love very much ! i was very shocked when i saw the pale, almost blood-less face of yours. for a sec i asked myself, who are you?!! i rmb the last time i saw you was on cny (its onli afew mnths ago), and you were smiling happily. welcomed us with your warmest hug, and the warmest words 'darling, i miss you.' i'll never failed to reply 'but i don't miss you at all ! because you'r always on my mind~' and you smiled once again. Today, when i stepped into the room, i swear i wanted to cry out loud. i don't care how hurtful will it be to let you see me crying like hell, i just wanna cry out loud !! if my tears could helped to ease your pain, i don't mind becoming one blind woman. but in the end, i held back my tears. i fought real hard to hold back my tears and i guess you see thru it. you just opened up your arms and said 'c'mon ! its alrite, i just need a hug now.' i hugged you real tight and we remind slient for the next 10 seconds. i thought maybe if i hugged you tightly, i can shared some pain of yours. i can at least know how painful you really felt. BUT I FKING CAN'T FEEL IT !! WHY !!? its painful, i know ! its not okay, i also know ! but why can't god just let me share some of your burden?!! all i could do was saying 'everything will be alrite~ everything will be fine~' infact, i wasn't really telling/consoling you. i was more of telling myself to believe that everything will be alrite. yes ! i'm sucha timid woman ! i know ! thats because i really can't afford to lose you. i really hate going hospital. walking down the coldest and the darkest path, you dunno what you'r going to face. but for sure, it was something bad. very very bad !

ps. please God, let all the illness stay away from her.

dusty-lil-history

2011-05-19T00:56:00.008+08:00

all the happy moments with friends, i mean the true ones.

i really miss the old days~

ps. cheers to true friendship !

friend vs stranger

2011-05-15T23:13:00.004+08:00

why do 'reality' ever exist?

when everyone hate it so fking much.

maybe this world is sucha whore that everyone hafta go out wearing 'mask'.

when people smile, they don't really mean it.

and when they say 'ohh, you look so beautiful today. trust me ! they don't reallythink so !

they just said for the sake of saying.

perharp, a lil motive behind.

YES, YOU'R RIGHT!

i'm a pathetic bitch who don't believe in kind human nature.

there isn't such thing as 'good soul'!

human being are just selfish ugly disgusting animal.

if you saw one good soul, great!

because the next thing you'll ever witness were be a million bad ones !

strangers suck !

and thats why we need FRIENDS !

most prolly, the true ones !

if your friend is one piece of shit that don't mean what they say,

dump it !

because life have too much shit waiting for you to clear,

so why bother to keep any with you?

i guess i made a right choice.

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2011-05-10T22:33:00.002+08:00

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YES; NO

2011-04-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

5 reason for girls to say 'i do!'

your boyfriend never fail you. and if he did, he will try to make up for it, sincerely !

your boyfriend never hide his hp when you're around. he let you check on his hp anywhere, anytime !

he never hang up the phone before you ! N.E.V.E.R !

he introduce you to his friends, almost every single friend. even though you're sweating like hell !

lastly, he changed IMMEDIATELY when you pointed out something that he had done which made you angry.

if you have more ticks then cross for all the above, don't wait. just say 'YES!' don't let a good guy slip by, you wouldn't be so lucky next time !

ps. every girls deserve a 'happily everafter' !

ohh ! i'm a crazy nut !

2011-04-28T22:57:00.003+08:00

seriously, i didn't know what to blog about until i saw this photo at mich's friend blog. LOLs! i was so shocked by it and paused for like 3 seconds? WTF ! i looked totally fugly !! how can i went clubbing without thick makeup on ?!! GOD ! you must be kidding, AND i must be crazy ! LOLS !! and the shirt on this photo, where issit now? LOLS! totally retro okay ! eewwkkkk !!

i.am.not.gonna.look.back.EVER.AGAIN !!

ps. it was so yesterday !

2011-04-26T17:26:00.000+08:00

22nd birthday !

2011-04-20T23:13:00.002+08:00

i have been consuming deep fried foods for the past few days and GREAT ! i'm down with fever and sorethroat ~ krrr... ! so sick ~ i really dunno what to update on this space, but i felt like updating though .. can't make up my mind ! (yes, thats me !) well, somebody turns 22 in an hr time and i'm so gulity that i wouldn't be there to do the 'traditional' thingy. i'm so sorry my dear ~ but, i'll be meeting you for a belated b'day celebration on 26th !! hooray !! well, i witness how time flies .. like a g6 !! we have being friends for goddamnfking 20years ! crazy isn't it? its like almost a lifetime .. and who knows, maybe you were right beside me when i was a newborn crybaby ! LOLS! whatever it is, am still glad we met 20years ago. although you really really look 'huge' and i was so afraid of you crashing down on me. LOLs! but still thanks god that we started our very first 'hello !' anyway, 22years old ! hows issit feel? old? nah nah .. you look perfectly young and pretty ! rmb? we were still look like this when we're 30years old ! you said it, and i tink so too !

lastly, happy birthday my dear xiiany !

shit my mama !

2011-04-13T16:50:00.003+08:00

how shitty it was when i bathe/done with my make-up/perfume/so fking ready to go out ... THEN, it started raining cats and dogs !!! fine then! so i undress/washed away my make-up/go to bed and hide inside my blanket, about to nap ... THEN, its a sunny day again !!! WTF ! WTF ! WTF ! WTF ! WTF ! WTF ! WWWWWTTTTTTFFFFF !! god, can you explained to me what are you trying to do? stop me from going out? c'mon! i'm out of love and you still play stupid tricks on me! OHH GOD ! SO MAD ! SO MAD ! gotta chill ~ high blood pressure shooting up ! ps. please don't rain this coming sat, i have better things to do.

failure vs success

2011-04-03T15:41:00.003+08:00

seriously .. who needs a life like mine?!! totally screwed up/messed up/FUCKED UP !!!! i'm still stucked in between 'risky-blogshop' & 'a-mnthly-paid-job' ?!! WTF ! am i thinking too much or issit right to think so much before making final decision? ohh fuck ! i really dunno sehh !! i mean .. we only live once. JUST ONCE !! i dun wanna looked back and started shouting at myself 'WHY DIDN'T I DO THAT?!!'. you know the kinda of feeling? R.E.G.R.E.T !!! even if it really failed, at least i don't regret. because i TRIED my best ! yes? no? but i'm not someone who admit failure. and i swear i was born like that or maybe someone taught me ... 'if you wanna do, let it be your very best!' to me, it mean .. NO FAILURE ! GOD DAMIT ! whats wrong with me ! thought of posting some happy times with love ones, but i can't stop myself from complaining how sucky life was ! krrr ...!! okay! maybe if 2013 ain't the end of the world, i'll stop being so unrealistic! and find a full time/mnthly paid job ! LOLs!! so world, you better don't end by then ! because i have so much thing to do with the pay that was mnthly transfer into my bank account without failed ! LOLs! ps. everyone should start doing more good deeds! or heaven wouldn't welcome you when you say byebye to this world. *wink*

gonna be tiny lil step by tiny lil step.

2011-03-30T03:13:00.004+08:00

peanutbutter will be on the way soon!!!

i promised, i wouldn't let 'peanutbutter' be just another blogshop!

so fking excitied !!

do support when its done. prolly by may? earlier?

okay! i'll post it everywhere!

ps. afterall, its really not that easy. i salute blogshop who had success from a small lil business to a million of customer now!

2011-03-10T17:08:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST DA JIE !

alrite, was busy singing and these were the photos i tried my best to take. LOLs!

hello! i sacrifice slot of songs that i wanna sing to take all these photos okay! LOLS!

and why did i bother to explain ..

okay, hope my sister love the cake!

*huggie*

thats my fav boy ! since 6years ago, how time flies~

ps. my dad is the best dad ever, only when he don't nag so much! and choke me to death !

pss. i think my sister wouldn't kill me for posting the cake with the candles still on .. LOLS!

2011-03-09T15:24:00.002+08:00

WELL ! i'm still trying my ultimate best to find a job. of cos its not just a job, i needa money too! and its so ridiculous when xxx company wanted to pay me 1k !!! fking 1k?!! its not enff for transport lahs dey !! and worst of all, 1k doesn't include CPF and etc .. ALRITE! save it for yourself! i think the auntie that appeared every moring to collect cans and paper earned more than that ~ LOLs! i'm not being choosy, BUT ! c'mon! who is not working for the sake of money, unless you're one rich brat lahs. admit it, everyone LOVE money ! yes? no?

i really hate sitting at home and rot to death !

okay, something to be happy. i'm going kbox later! YAY! and its been awhile since i last shouted my lungs out! LOLS! gonna be so crazy over kbox ! i'll prolly fix a mini ktv in the future when i got my own house~ duper shiok shiok lahs!

yups .. gonna be back with photos ..

when a lil angel was born

2011-02-27T16:43:00.002+08:00

25/2

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUTIE LIL PRINCESS !

ps. upload more photos when i'm free

mr sun came out to play!

2011-02-23T20:31:00.004+08:00

the other day, i went sentosa with sh .. and the sun was , SHIOK-ED LAHS! we did expected that it'll be a sunny day .. but we didn't bother to buy more mineral water, and see what happened for acting smart? .. we almost dehydrated to death.!! LOLS!
it was 100x hotter then we expected .. *fat thumb up*
because to be honest .. 9 out of 10 time when we planned a tanning session, it always end up rainning heavily or cloudy weather .. but that day was like .. fuck hot! which was great ! that 1 day that we planned successfully ! *claps* i really want a darker skin colour, i mean not like bagalah that type lahs .. maybe just alil bit darker then usual .. and i'll be a happy girl !

ps. not much photos, as we were enjoying ourselves under the hot sun.

pss. time for another round of tanning, because tanned-skin-colour don't stay long on me!

until that day come, everything will still be the same.

2011-02-20T14:55:00.003+08:00

sometimes when it come to 'love', you really have to surrender. there is no promise that the man you're with now will surely became your husband someday, even though everyone thinks that 'god! he love you so much can!!'. you know, cupid has its own way of playing lil tricks on lovers. of cos ! every girl, for once or maybe twice, dreamt of how grand their wedding will be. you wore the most beautiful and bling wedding gown, with lots of friends and relatives attend your wedding, giving their warmest blessing. and soon you were be walking down the red carpet with the guy that you swear willingly 'til death do us apart', without looking back, you know he is the one. your 'happily everafter'.

it was like a dream come true! and for the first time reality seem better then dream, much much better !

BUT ! what if the guy that everyone expected became the one that did something least expected? YOU'RE RIGHT! you just have to open the window and jump down without hesitate! LOLS! of cos not.

i still believe that, nothing last forever. right now, everything may look rather perfect. rather loving. rather happy. but what will happened after all the 'rather', nobody knows. so, everyone should just cherish what you have now.

ps. never regret knowing someone that once made you smile.

2011-02-19T12:56:00.005+08:00

advance celebration for v'day .. and did i told you guys i went back for sushi tei again when the previous day i already have it with sh .. LOLS!

what to do ~ sushi tei serve nice foods! not only the sushi rice taste yummy, all other foods are fresh and mouth-watering! didn't order alot because of my stupid stomach. but i was enff happy that i could digest my Umaki !

also ..

*YUM *YUM !

ps. to be contiune ...

fifth day of cny

2011-02-06T15:55:00.002+08:00

NOT GONNA GAMBLE AFTER CHINESE NEW YEAR END !
lols!! becos i'm like .. win/lose/win/lose/lose/lose .. and contiune losing ! the rate of winning and losing was like .. 1000:10000000000? WTS RITE! this year snake no luck lahs~ LOLS!

okay, bye! just here to murmur awhile ~ boring ~

ps. fattychan will be booking in later .. EVEN boring~

nerdy fringe!

2011-02-02T12:42:00.003+08:00

i mean i chopped off my fringe .. not hair~ LOLS! no one believe when i said i chopped off my hair (thanks to my itchy hand), especially sweet, she die die wanna see .. LOLS! well, of cos i wouldn't chopped off my fav long hair ~

alright! HAPPY RABBIT YEAR peepos!

ps. this week gonna be a busy week! *phew

a day to remember, my lil sister.

2011-02-01T23:50:00.003+08:00

should blog alil while waiting for my foods to digest. LOLs! it was a heavy dinner, and ex also ! 5 dishes cost $433 !! WTS !! luckily i'm the youngest so i don't need to split the cost .. LOLs! but i heard my bro grumbling like hell~ okay, what to do .. I'M THE YOUNGEST !! it was really fun to sit together and have a delicious meal .. it only happened once a year and i swear i treasure these moments .. *wide smile*

actually, new year was not about the visit/the angbaos/the gathering. to me, it was a time that remind me "hey! i still have a lil sister!"

tadah !

my mom used to be a babysitter. and she was just a baby when i first saw her which fell on cny eve. you know, i was like fking jealous with her. because my whole family dote her like she was the youngest. and i always got scolded beacuse of her. thats why i never failed to bully her. pay back time *evil laugh* "ooei ! help me take the remote control!"/"ooei! i wanna drink water"/"ooei ! bla..blab..bla..!" LOLs! back den .. i just dunno why must i shared my family with her when she is just a nobody? i'm so angry!

but things changed as i grow older ..

well, this year she will be celebrating her 18th birthday. yes, it had been 18years .. and i finally know why my parents love her so much. because she is a sweetheart. she didn't forget us when she went back to her own family afew years back. she still rings my mom up just to ask how was my mom doing. every special occasion, she never failed to wish my mom. especially my mom birthday. she cried the loudest when my mom was admitted to the hospital and also for the operation. she bought something for my mom, instead of her own mom when she went overseas for holiday. she is a smart girl, A1 for every subject. and she believe that it was my mom who taught her so much. (the fact that she was born clever)

so you tell me how can my mom resist a daughter like her?

well, as time goes by, i started to wish that how great if she is my real sister. idk what made me changed, but i guess it was some kind of bonding. for like 18years .. we shared secrets/chit chat/and she still got bullied by me again and again. we didn't tell each other but deep down both of us knew that, although we're not real sisters .. but we wished that next life, or maybe every next life .. we can be sisters again, yes, i mean real sisters. god have his own reason for bringing this lil angel to my life. i'm still searching for that reason, but whatever the reason was ... one thing for sure, sisters for life!

ps. thanks for everything, my lil sister.

its been a long time

2011-01-27T18:40:00.002+08:00

a video that can watched 100times without getting tired of it !
sucha cute boy ! only if you-know-who didnt copy me, that will be even great. *sigh*
alright, shall post videos that i like to keep my blog alive. its too dead ~

ps. 5days more to CNY ! woohoo~!! angbaos! angbaos! LOLS!!

show me how you Burlesque

2011-01-25T22:58:00.002+08:00

watch it again and again. christina voice was like .. fuck it ! FUCK IT !
she is sooooo god damn talented !
everyone just go watch Burlesque ! rawks BIG TIME !

the next thing you know, its over!

2011-01-19T18:42:00.003+08:00

this is the 2nd week of 2011 .. and i'm still jobless !

whats even worst, i'm going thru some stressful problem. not regarding job lahs. and where my gfs?!! hais~

you know, sometimes you wanna help someone so desperately but you just dunno how to. and you felt yourself so fking useless !

i am so willing to risk every chance just to minimize your stress-ness to as low as possible.
i know you're going thru bad times. i know how you felt .. tired of all the heavy duties/deep shit .. YES ! I KNOW! but you gonna be strong and hang on for a period of time. and this is the only way out. i know you can do it ! i always believe you can, and you always never let me down. rmb?
seriously ..
i hope god can be fair enough to let you out of that fking shit.
but before god realize it, you must must hang on okay. dun make me worry abt you, because i love you sooooo much.
i hope to see you smile once again .. like a 24hrs cheerful old man ~

ps. i'll be there for you, i promise.

i wish i have a daughter like her.

2011-01-17T19:22:00.000+08:00

ohh yyyeeesss ~!!

sucha sweetie, you know.

its another new skill

2011-01-16T18:02:00.003+08:00

*TADAH !

FISHTAIL ! FISHTAIL !

okay, i know it was fugly. but i did it myself, and it wasn't as easy as you see!

*chin high up* i'm so proud okay! LOLS!

ps. 2hrs more and i getta see that skinny girl~ H.A.P.P.Y !!

i'll find a MYSELF somewhere.

2011-01-14T13:52:00.002+08:00

yesterday night i was suffering from some over-emotional attacked after fattychan left. dammit ! i really dk what i want, i mean for my future. i can't stucked here like .. forever? i wanna do something big! earn fking lots and lots of money! own a car, so that when my emotional kicks in i can drive around. YES! it'll surely make me feel better!

of cos i gotta work now! i gotta save money and make my dream come true asap! i don't wanna be poor for the entire life! LOLs! am i mad? nah, i think i'm too hungry now, thats why~

alright. i'll start finding a job after CNY. because i dun wanna spoiled my CNY mood by hearing news like .. "sorry miss, this job don't have CNY holiday. you have to come back and work!" WWWTTTFFF !! i'll kill myself, really!!

anyway, i'll be having xiao long bao buffet later. great !! thanks to sista chua! soooo ...
it means i wouldn't starve to death !! LOLS!!

but seriously .. everyone were like so busy now uhs~ ginny ? sweetheart ? ime? CYZ ? where you girls uhs? appear/disappear/appear and disappear again? LOLS! catch up on CNY okay?!! miss you all so much!

ps. i'll be meeting soksok later!! so its okay, i don't have to ask where is she. she is with me all along~ LOLS!

its a good start, babyboy.

2011-01-10T19:33:00.004+08:00

2011,

the very first date with fattychan ..

i can't say fattychan is my first boyfriend, because i can't change the fact that he is not.

but if i have the power to turn back time, i'll surely fight for it and make him my first.

( because he is too good to be true.)

of cos, i can't promise fattychan will be the one thats gonna walk thru the red carpet with me .

because people change/feeling change as time goes by.

and if that day really come, i'll try my very best effort to make you stay a lil longer.

(because i'm not ready to lose you)

do you know the feeling of losing someone so close to you?

like .. losing your soul?

and from that moment on you just don't know what to do,

where to go,

and how to carry on with your life.

everything became just black and white.

well, you better don't make this day happen.

because i promise, it'll be like HELL !

'TREASURE' is the word.

ps. i'm happy, because you were here.

happy day!

2011-01-06T22:58:00.002+08:00

I LOVE SHOPPING !

it kills time/chase away my bored-ness/made me stopped missing fattychan for awhile/

and most of all new collection for my wardrobe !

woohooo !!

whats even more jaw-dropping,

EVERYWHERE ARE ON SALE NOW!!!

c'mon! what are you waiting for ..

its time to show some s'poreans' style,

BE KIA SUI

AND

SNATCH! SNATCH! AND SNATCH !

ps. good luck peepos !

what a long trip

2011-01-05T16:26:00.004+08:00

my motive was to go ikea with sh. and.. maybe ime and met? but that stupid-you-know-who made us travelled all the way to her school just to buy uniform! whats even terrible? THEY DIDN'T SELL THE UNIFORM THAT SHE WANT !!! MOTHER FKER LAHS! we were so angry with her, you know! we wanted to like .. kill her? chop her into minced meat type? BUT she bought me a princess cake when we reached ikea. i was like ... okay lahs, closed one eye~ LOLs!! princess cake can solved alot of problem .. seriously! we ordered so much foods .. 6 pieces of chicken wing/15 meatballs/fries/pancake/drumstick rice ... nice right? ginny must be hungry after reading. LOLs! after eating, went for some photo taking with the ikea's funitures (uploaded @ fb). so many CNY deco, felt so HUAT ARH ! LOLS! okay, after like afew hrs we headed down to prata shop for dinner. yah! yah! before that we bought ikea ice-cream. yummy yum yum! do we sound 'OMG!' to you? because even me, myself can't believe that the time between our two meals were just afew hrs apart! LOLS! you can said that .... we had two dinner? LOLS! so proud of our wonderful tummy!

then home sweet home~

ps. lots of unglam photos ... shall be upload here! stay tuned ! LOLS!

what should i do ?!!!

2011-01-03T13:49:00.002+08:00

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

FFFKKKKKIIINNNGGGGGGG

BBBBBOOORRRREEEEDDDDDDD

!!!!!!

lifetime friends !

2011-01-02T15:56:00.006+08:00

x'mas celebration with 2 pretties.

you know, for every x'mas ..

i thank god for sending me two best gift ever !

first day of 2011

2011-01-01T17:08:00.002+08:00

YAY !! ITS 2011 !!
last night party was awesome ! especially the wii's part. watching the videos again and again, never failed to laugh each time i viewed it. LOLS!! i wanted to upload to fb, but something stopped me! i think i was alil too crazy. LOLs! idk why .. it was all wii fault !! you know, shall keep some image uhs. maybe i'll upload these videos on the first day of 2012?? how issit?? good idea right! LOLs!
alrite, stop talking rubbish. lets be serious for afew mins ...
2010 ...

i got into nursing course and thot that this was what i want, but nah ... it lasted for just 3 fking mnths, and bye nursing. i dun tink i can handle all the needles/blood/sick peepos .. seriously, i ain't that strong.
mommy was hospitalize .. it was rather serious and i almost lost her .. it was the darkest days of my life! and i never wanna talk about it again. (mommy, i'm glad that you fighted til the very end. i love you SO MUCH!)
searched for a full time job .. and ended up eating grass for afew mnths before entering s-hub!
fattychan was enlisted .. full of complains/nagging and nagging away (thats him!) but still he face the fact like a MAN !
s-hub was fun! great! awesome! nice working mates .. nice pay .. everything just NICE ! but i quited as the working time was *ahem* (i missed CSSD !)
hang out with friends even often. more money out then in. AHHHHH !!

2010 ain't a good year .. everything was messed up ! and i hope 2011 will be better. i dun expect very good days, but at least BETTER. god, you hear me? gonna complete some mission before 2011 ends .. haha!

okay, everyone please work hard for year 2011 ! because we're dying at 2012 ! LOLs! (aliens?? spaceship? WTF !)

ps. i promise to change for the better.

BYE 2010 !

bye 2010; hello 2011

2010-12-30T00:01:00.002+08:00

ps. only resolution, gonna enjoy my life to the fullest !!

2010-12-29T13:18:00.002+08:00

the thought of meeting my two pretties made me so fking excitied. its been a long time ... and i miss them so much. alrite, i'll be back with lots of pictures !

2010-12-29T01:12:00.000+08:00

ps. Goodnight readers!

after so long.

2010-12-29T00:35:00.003+08:00

i'm back !

shall keep tumblr, incase i got real bored.

but right now,

hello, blogger!

it was fun.

2010-07-21T18:28:00.002+08:00

currently had a crushed with tumblr !!
they can reblog again and again. whats more! they have many wonderful pictures. i really felt like sharing.
i shall put my blogspot on holiday !
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ddeviantt.tumblr.com

gotcha!

2010-07-20T16:45:00.004+08:00

as times goes by, couple started to get tired with each other. they started to quarrel more than usual, they started to pay lesser attention with each other. lesser care, means lesser love. out of 10 couple, 8 of them were surely experience the above situation. i guess almost every friends of mine knew about this uhs. so what should we do to maintain this rs? seriously, nobody really created a 100% sucessful solution to solve this fking headache plus heartache problem. and you know what, i have been with fattychan for almost 3years, i started to get worried. because i was so afraid to lose him. sometimes, out of nowhere, i started to think of many many 'what if ...' (so free right!) but i should be glad, because until today, bb still love me like the whole world know, only i dunno. LOLs! he still give in to me. he still place me at the VIP seat in his heart. he still tried to change because of me. he still choose to stay by me even though we quarrelled so many times and i was always the one who said words that hurt him so deep. important of all, he always make me believe that "i am his future, and thats enough." so how can i resist this yummy boy. he just taste so sweet ! LOLs! opps! don't anyhow think uhs. i mean .. i am so in love with this boy. right now, bb was snoring next to me while i update my blog with all these happiness i am going through. even if we quarrelled for countless time, i still think its a kind of happiness. because neither me nor you choose to give up. so please bring me to the future that you had planned for us. i am so looking forward. no matter what the future would be, regardless of laughter/tears/quarrels.
babyboy, just want you to know, i'll always believe in what you believe.

full of complain

2010-07-11T15:42:00.003+08:00

i didn't know it was such a headache to plan a birthday party, especially mine ! you have to balance the foods and money. not too much and not too little until people will talk behind your back , like .."wao lao eh, the food suck !"/"omg! i am not even half full and there isn't any food left!" KRRR...!! friends, please forgive me if all of these happened. don't complain, because i tried my best ! damn! felt like cancelling this event ! stay at home and celebrate my 21st birthday. GREAT ! i can save money and buy a ipod touch !! but ... its impossible lahs!

ps. cracking my brain ! AHHHHHH !

2010-07-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

meet up with gin and sh almost everyday. weekends were spent together talking about lame shit, but i enjoyed it ! and guess what?!! ... after 20years of living, sh did her ever FIRST pendicure session today ! LOLs! tml we will be meeting again. great ! it means i wouldn't be bored. goodnight !

reblog.

2010-06-26T14:00:00.002+08:00

"find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep ... wait for the boy who kisses you forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand infront of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you ... The one who turns to his friends and says,

that's her."

ps. do this sound familiar to you? if it did, means you're near HAPPINESS !

pss. but if it don't, means .. STOP WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME ON HIM !

lessons from life.

2010-06-25T13:53:00.005+08:00

1.Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2.When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3.Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4.Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch!

5.Pay off your credit cards every month.

6.You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7.Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8.It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9.Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10.When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11.Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12.It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13.Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14.If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15.Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16.Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17.Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18.Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19.It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to

you and no one else.

20.When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an

answer.

21.Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special..

22.Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23.Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24.The most important sex organ is the brain.

25.No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26.Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27.Always choose life.

28.Forgive everyone everything.

29.What other people think of you is none of your business.

30.Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31.However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32.Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33.Believe in miracles.

34.God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35.Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36.Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37.Your children get only one childhood.

38.All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39.Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40.If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41.Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42.The best is yet to come.

43.No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44.Yield.

45.Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift

- written by Regina Brett, 90 years old.

best commercial ever!

2010-06-17T13:51:00.001+08:00

so funny ! HAHAHA! thanks to wl !

100 : 1, LOSER GET LOST!

2010-06-16T19:13:00.004+08:00

whatever had happened at sweet's blog, i don't care. and don't intend to find out. BUT PLEASE DON'T DISTURB OTHER PEOPLE PEACEFUL LIFE ! because i know the feeling, it was damn fuckup ! nowadays was listening to rihana 'take a bow' and i thought of you and your messy rs. especially your ball-less bf ! i tink you should listen to it and let it go. for the last time, i said something from the bottom of my heart, i think you're better without him. MUCH MUCH BETTER !

PLUS: i wanna let you know, you still have us. ladies, its not just a name. but the strength within. woman should know how to protect themselves, don't let man control everything ! especially the very important part of yourself, your HEART ! open your eyes and see who is worth your love. GET OUT OF THAT FKING SHITTY RS !

you can call me -the naggy.

2010-06-09T16:31:00.002+08:00

i can't stand staying at home for more than 3days. it makes me so emo, CAN! and my legs hurt so badly, like .. emmm .. pig trotter? DON'T LUFF ! i am very serious with this issue ! i wanna get well soon and go hangout with my friends. kite flying/steamboat/city plaza/manicure. OMG! kill me pls ! now i'm craving for sushi.

well, you see. everything was pretty good. so don't worry maxster, i am fine. thanks for the get well soon e-mail. = )

2010-06-08T19:14:00.002+08:00

"DON'T PRETEND TO A GRIEF YOU DO NOT FEEL"

2010-06-06T23:26:00.001+08:00

watch it ! watch it ! too cool to resist !

genting trip.

2010-06-03T13:34:00.001+08:00

24days more to genting trip.
i should be happy, but i felt worried.
why?

who needs a bf like this? NOBODY!

2010-05-20T18:58:00.003+08:00

i shouldn't waste this precious space blogging about your fking gone case bf. but i just got real angry when you told me what had happened ! it was like .. wtf! did he really love you for the past 3years? whats all that woo-ing you back with the help of almost all my ladies? acting sibei good uhs! and i fking stupid and waste my time helping here and there. made myself so tired, SO TIRED! seriously, don't let me see you again. becos i am not sure what will i do. if you fell for another girl, admit like a man! 'i have no feeling anymore/i'm tired'? this excuse suck to the core lahs! only childish people used these excuse to ask for a breakup. and i swear afew years later you'll fking regret ! becos no one will love you like how my bestfriend did ! count your blessing, dude!

ps. my dear, time to move on. = )

i wanna get out of s'pore!

2010-05-18T13:13:00.002+08:00

genting trip this coming june,

batam trip this coming aug
..........
don't let me down!

just been RANDOM !

2010-05-08T15:49:00.002+08:00

i can't get angry with bb for long.

why?!

because everytime he performed the fat worm wriggling,

i laughed like

i had forgot how angry i was JUST A SEC ago.

os. i am so lousy !

zoological and the hangout place.

2010-05-02T14:23:00.003+08:00

zoo trip was a big success,

if the weather wasn't that hot !

if all my ladies were there !

afterall,

we enjoyed ourselves.

*TWO FAT THUMBS UP*

i'll tried to upload all the pic as soon as tomorrow !

PS. a big thanks to ginny/wr/sh/and bb !

cute lahs!

2010-04-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

suri cruise !

i like.

2010-04-28T13:01:00.005+08:00

i used to believe that Justin Bieber is a 'girl-transfered-into-boy' boy. LOLs!!
don't blame me for mistaken it, because his voice was fking like a girl.

Justin Bieber - Baby.

i quit.

2010-04-25T21:43:00.001+08:00

i don't really wanna blog about this issue, because i don't see the need to tell anyone. not even my best of the best friends. its not something to be proud of. i am just tired of sending the same replies zillion times 'oh yah, i quit nursing. bla bla bla..' so .... yah! here i am telling everyone, I QUIT NURSING ! i have my reason for making this damn sudden decision. but i would appreciate it more if you guys just give me your most moral support. i am fine, doing great. without waking up early thinking of whose butt i am going to clean today, hahaha. actually i really need this nursing cert but god just love to play prank on me. what can i do? alright! i'll miss my nursing friends, especially JN1001F! and i'll surely miss going school with sweet! thats all i guess. i'll blog again when everything was settle down.

os. thanks for all the care and love. = )

s.t.r.e.s.s

2010-04-15T11:12:00.001+08:00

stress

STRESS

STRESS LAHS!!!

2010-04-06T23:15:00.002+08:00

"people came into your life for a reason, a season,

or a lifetime.

when you figure out which it is, you'll know exactly what to do."

- Michelle Ventor

just words, no picture.

2010-04-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

i really can't remember when was the last time i log in my blog and started typing some emo sh*t onto this unlimited space. well, i enjoyed my holiday so much that the feeling of giving up nursing came across my mind once. and the feeling was damn fking strong. LOLS!!! ( picked up the telephone, dial the school number and just tell them "I AM NOT COMING BACK!!!") dream on mabeline! of cos i can't do this, even if all my friends and family agreed. i don't wanna end up at nowhere, like a 3years old lost kid standing in the middle of orchard road crying and shouting for his mommy. alrite, just bear with it for another 1year plus and thats it! i'll survived ! 1 more week before my holiday end, and it'll be another 3mnths of torturing. OMG!!! i don't hope for fking good result or many patients LOVE me. i just hope nothing went wrong.
lets work hard together, JN1001F!!

ps. mommy was admitted to hospital again. and you know, i fking hate it!

i never tried at all, to be somebody else.

2010-03-24T16:00:00.004+08:00

you know, it was really really REALLY a long time since i last laughed so much, right from the bottom of my heart.

and i guess only my two lovely can do it.

imagine laughing so loud at public?

the 3 of us?

omfg!!! eu can't imagine until you saw it with your own eyes.

LOLS! it was madly funny talking about those days back during our pri school life.

one inside joke, rmb mich?

(i am this big and xiian was THIS BIG!! hahaha!!)

alright. xiian gonna break my face.

ps. more photos at fb.

holga camera.

2010-03-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

guess who bought Holga camera?!!

WE!

(actually, bb bought that camera and i only bought the lens)

i gonna take million of photos and start collecting all the memories. well, normal digital camera also have the same function. just that for holga you have no choice but to bring the film to the shop and print it out, in order to see what you had captured. you know, NO CHOICE! but one thing for sure, holga have a very special effect that normal DC don't have - vintage background colour! it was damn fking chio. don't believe? GOOGLE IT! LOLs. anyway, buy one and experience the fantasy!

alright, tomorrow i'll be meeting my two lovely. and i'll be uploading photos(maybe).

stay tune!

os. people said we look great together, do you think so too?

will you walk a thousand mile, just to see me smile?

2010-03-20T15:33:00.002+08:00

i decided to give our love another one last try.
if it don't works well.
thats it, i'll walk out of your life completely.

bb, please don't let me down.
because,
i really love you alot more than you can imagine.

bye sweetest love.

2010-03-19T16:56:00.002+08:00

you walked out of my house that day.
just like how i alight the bus leaving you behind, a year back.
the pain compared to yours was double.
because you left without any notice. not even a chance for me to beg you to stay.
i cried and cried, thought that miracle will happen. i opened my house door, afraid that you may just come back. i know how silly this is.
but no, you didn't came back. neither did you msged me anymore.
and i guess, it was not only my house that you had walked out.
but also, my life.

happy 25months, babyboy.
until now i still believe that knowing you was the most wonderful thing that could happened in my life.
and for the last time, i said.

ps. i love you.

once again.

2010-03-18T13:31:00.002+08:00

" JUST BECAUSE HER

EYES DON'T TEAR

DOESN'T MEAN HER

HEART DOESN'T CRY.

AND JUST BECAUSE SHE

COMES OFF STRONG

DOESN'T MEAN THERE'S

NOTHING WRONG. "

felt so fking great!

2010-03-10T19:51:00.002+08:00

examination,

OVER.

nafa,

OVER.

3 months of suffering,

O.V.E.R !!!!

bye module 1.1, hello HOLIDAY !!

gruppy, not happy!

2010-03-02T17:55:00.002+08:00

every part of my body aching like hell ..!!

thanks to the upcoming NAFA test.

i need a wheelchair now.

whats even worst, i need to study for my final semester exam.

anyone just kill me lahs!!!

ARRR...!!!

why must it be me and you?

2010-03-01T20:17:00.003+08:00

time like this,

how i wish you'll here.

babyboy,

forget about the future that i always wanted.

because right now,

i just need you by my side.

ps. do you know that time is running out?

everyone should know.

2010-02-28T16:08:00.002+08:00

i am glad you are back home now.

mommy,

i love you so much.

please stay healthy forever because i still need you.

the fact that,

i need you even if i am 80years old now.

friends, its time you treasure the ones that stay with you thru rain and shine.

someone who really care. especially family!

people will asked why must it be family?

thats because its all in your blood!

if you ever thought that the love your mom or dad once gave you can be replace by ANYBODY in this entire world.

i guess that sound very stupid.

trust me, it 'll never be the same.

they scold,

they nag,

they asked for so much from you,

thats because they CARE!

treasure them,

because they may just leave you any moment starting from now,

without any notice.

ps. life is too short. nah, its even shorter.

2 in 1

2010-02-14T10:59:00.010+08:00

HAPPY COUPLES' DAY!

and

HAPPY TIGER YEAR!

(while waiting for my mr chan to wake up..)

psss. i love you, mr chan!

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS HERE!

2010-02-13T11:10:00.006+08:00

i had my chinese new year reunion dinner yesterday night (as my sis wouldn't be free tonight) at toa payoh lor 8, blk 211 !! i have to tell you where is the place because IT WAS DAMN FKING NICE! big fatty juicy CCCRRRAAABBBS!!! omg! i started to miss the crabs again. LOLs! and we all enjoyed ourselves, especially the two lil' fellow.

after that, home for mj. and i lose.

psss. ain't the two lil' precious cute?

arab street.

2010-02-11T19:11:00.005+08:00

went for shesha at arab st. yesterday night to slack.

and damnit! i regret going down!

because it was so diffcult to go home from there and almost all the taxis were occupied. krrr...!!

it took me an hour to reach home by BUS.

alright, 1 more day to chinese new year. stop complaining mabeline!

thats what i am longing for. woohoo!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU-KNOW-WHO

HAPPY HOLIDAY TO YOU-KNOW-WHO!

haha!

ps. my most handsome fattyboy! smack 10000times!

nothing much.

2010-02-07T11:02:00.003+08:00

its only for monday to friday.

bad weekend.

2010-01-30T18:21:00.002+08:00

my one and only LOVE

became,

my one and only HEARTACHE.

ps. are you there?